this is a free write, so i've no idea what will come out
ok, so 1..2...3
bongrip....
fuuuuck. the me inside myself is old. between the black lung and my bad back i think i'll be lucky to see 27 without a walker. Today has been rainy, both in my brain and in the out doors. I feel lame saying that but i basically mean that there's a layer of uncertanty over everything and its all just rolling on endlessly with humid sunniness just out of reach in soon to be/ just was.
in the sun though my mind is clear enough of stupid everyday human greyness to actually be bright.
In those moments my mind feels like it's on the edge of something
Some simple permanent truths that tickel my logical brain in they're unbreachable wisdom
but apeal to my whimsical side by coming out prose like- even before they're spoken
my thoughts, when in a happier clearer state of mind, are free to grow and swarm
to eb around my mind and breath life into the dustiest corners of my subconsious
i actually get inspired
i actually feel better, just as because of me.
it's a new thing for me- making my self happy.
it's neat
you should try it
However when i think in that grand bigger than my body way, i feel pretentious- only cause my thoughts come out as beautiful as the ideas that define them. i'm inclined to not believe them, because nothings that perfect.
(thats not true either though, the majority of my friends have shown me that there are nice/STUNNING/smart beings in exsistance)
still these ideas, so simple, and so personally resonant, fill me with such peace that i cannot let go of them.
little rules like:
Give- Anything not physically attached to you (and in the case of the kidney, or blood maybe still actually apart of you) can likely be of more use to someone else. unless it warms your heart when you hold or use this item- the joy it brings the recipient is worth the loss. Possessions foster possessiveness. Imagine the look on a stranger or friends face, when they find some thing they'd wanted or lost had been replaced.
Love- When there is someone to admire, respect, react to well, feel good about and around, and generally enjoy completely, there will never be enough to give. You'd deliver the world at a word. A kiss, a hug, hand holds, cuddles, sex, vows of devotion, words of love- wisely departing these precious acts on the deserving can rearrange oceans. can destroy years of emotion. can cause an explosion. from a glance on the street, to inseparable soul-mates, ONLY LOVE IS WORTH KEEPING
Play- music, games, jokes, tricks, with words and your food. If it cracks a smile and no (upset) tears are shed it's better let out!. it's better fun be kept up and about! fun matches the drapes, the counter tops and those shoes your wearing so keep at it! Moments of pure joy grow rare as more responsibilities are added to our lives. following bliss to other worlds, jungle gyms, or dance halls will keep your mind young and your heart alive. play tag with your inhibitions, catch them once in a while- and love them too, once you do
Be- Remember, you're not your body, you're a spirit. So just EXISTS every now and again. your mind can only expand as far as you'll let it. realize that you are everything, and anything is yours.
Always Seek Outward- Find the truth and all it's limited answers. Push to the edges of the known in anything that interests you. There is a reason for everything, especially your curiosities and talents. The universe is ever expanding, follow suit!
Always Seek Inward- You are everything. the key to the world is much in you and it is in the stars. unlock the mind and the all will follow.
Believe- Knowing that everything is all else, you now know the truth of self- and can tap into that harmony and change the world simply, directly.
Harmonize-Identify-Exchange-Recognize
Magik does not exists without manners.
Biblically-Simplicity-Scribbles-Scribture.
If all of this is true than none of it matters.
hmmmm not too shabby..
booongrip
coughcough
WINE AND CHEESE TIME
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